Wednesday, February 05, 2014

Hi everyone. I've been a little quiet on this space, but I thought it'll be good to start writing again since the lunar new year just commenced. I hope everyone had a great 2013, and I wish all of you good health in the coming year. 
2013 was a tough but good year. I'm expecting 2014 to be the same. I just can't wait to advance to 2015 where many good and exciting things are bound to happen. 2013 passed quickly, and I wish for this year to be similar. 

Regarding my current life: 


Also, I've come to realise how I still prefer being an individual. Of course everyone is an individual. But what I meant by truly being one is where I am not bound by obligation while making decisions. 2013 was the year I felt happy from time to time. It was fun, it was a popular thing to do, it exposed me a lot. But on hindsight I still rather forge personal bonds as they are usually stronger, more intimate, and more easily appreciated. 
In 2013 it was appalling how I became closer to people I thought I'll never be close to, and vice versa. 

On a sidenote, being an individual in my relationship with Ben also taught me a lot. Because he is away most of the time, I needed to learn independence. Independence isn't just being able to survive without my boyfriend. In fact, if you can go on with life perfectly well without, what is your relationship worth? I've been living life well, but not better than when Ben was around. I cherish this relationship a lot more than before, and we are certainly taking it to greater heights. Never thought I'd ever settle down on romance so early in my life, but I'm glad we've gained assurance from both's parents, and our plans are forward -looking and contributing to the maturity of our relationship and also each other. 

I did well last semester. I don't think I will do that well ever again. But I'm glad I pushed myself, because I saw what my potential can give me. I'm content, and will live content, for I know what my best is and what I'm capable of. This semester started slow, but is advancing quickly. Just what I'd hoped for! 

2013 was a year that taught me many things. I hope this year will be one where I gather the courage to execute what I've learnt. 2013 was also a year in which I found many true friends. Friends whom share the same views as I do despite being 3 years older or 1 year younger. 

2013 was good, but I know 2014 will be even better, even more fulfilling, and even more positive. Cheers to the new year! 

Saturday, November 16, 2013

I don't know how I live with these insomnia issues. 

Odd how I only suffer sleeping problems when Ben is away, and sleep perfectly well when he's not. 

Just one of those nights I wish distance didn't have to be between us.
December come now please :( 

Monday, November 11, 2013

Happy 2nd year anniversary!
Thank you for loving me so much despite being thousands of miles away. 

Don't deserve someone as kind as you but I'll cherish all your love for me and I hope we'll be as good forever as we are now :') 

Love you <3

Monday, November 04, 2013

Busy essay period which will be quickly followed by the exams. This sem flew by, but it's undeniably the best sem thus far. 

To many good sems ahead, cheers! 

Friday, October 18, 2013

It's been 4 years. 

My little heart wrenches but I am glad and excited for you. 

There's no need to erase the memories of our past, and I acknowledge that you'll forever remain as someone special to me. I'm glad Ben understands and accepts how I feel. 

You've given me too much, and I've taken too much that I do not deserve at that time.I hope this time round, you'll find someone deserving of your kindness, and your love. 

You are a good man, just not right for me and vice versa. I wish you in finding a good woman too. 


Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Weeks are going by but the mundanity of life is killing me. Only motivation to plough through the routines is the knowledge that time is passing, and I'll soon be able to touch your face and whisper "good morning" into your ears at daybreak.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

What is the hectic essay writing period without some beer? 

So, I took my Monday night off work and decided to let my hair down with some great-tasting draft beer. Doesn't help that the festivity of Oktoberfest evokes a more celebratory mood in me! 

Apart from being more busy with essays, I am slowly less busy with work too, because the non-tertiary academic year is soon coming to an end and my students are graduating one after another.

It's certainly a great sense of relief, and a big burden off my shoulders, but I'll definitely miss the intense lessons and moments of joy and laughter. As much as I do complain about how tiring or draining it is, I do enjoy teaching individuals, simply cos I can track their progress and it gives me a greater sense of responsibility (and maybe satisfaction too). 

I guess that answers whether I'm intending to join MOE or not.

Saturday, October 05, 2013

Sorry for the exceptionally long hiatus. One thing worth mentioning is that for the first time in 2013, I had a 6 day no tuition, no school break. It was amazing! 

Fav people in my life apart from my family: 

Thank you all for loving someone like me :') 

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Number of hours left for sleep is close to nought but I'm still tossing around. 

Have this strong urge to quit everything and just enjoy my life as a student. Yet the dismissal of my workaholic life fizzes some thoughts of impossiblity. 

On a happier note, we're 22 months old now :) 

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Sometimes the little joys in life come in the varying forms of excitement we put ourselves in.

I have this love-hate relationship with meeting my friends without prior arrangements or notice.
The thing about spontaneous meet-ups is that it is truly exciting.
On the flip-side, the uncertainty (which ironically brings excitement) scratches your palm and brings a small amount of discomfort.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

To differentiate friends from strangers with alcohol

Had a wondering pre-semester night with my closest friends from NTU English! 

Met up for an affordable but wonderfully tasty dinner at Le Chasseur, and despite the feast we ordered, the bill was of a humble sum.

Thereafter we left for Iguana (our second time there together) and had 5 good jugs of steam beer, home brew lager, and their signature margaritas! 

I've always loved Iguana for a chill night out with people close enough to chat continuously. One of my fav ambience for a pub!

Later into the night the few of us met my beer buddy Justin for our next round of alcohol, and it didn't help that pump room's 1-1 promotion were so well-mixed when we were there. 

Had the night of my life partying with my friends, and it's these sort of fun that I really enjoy at this stage of my life. 

No more clubbing, get dead drunk, puke, dance and get chatted up by strangers. No more seeing my friends get hooked up and leave the club without me. No more reliant friends who make me drink but end up more drunk and expect me to carry them home.

Instead, this decent fun, this fun of looking out for each other despite each other being slightly intoxicated, this fun of just letting our hairs down and not think of work and school, is what I call true enjoyment.

Cheers to a good semester ahead! 
The semester has started! Not yet done with travelling but I'll focus on school for now. 

Perth was good, and so was Bangkok with the girls. Really tons of pics but they're all on Facebook and I'm too lazy to upload pics hahaha.

Below are pics taken today! I really really love going to school :) 

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Didn't feel too long since Ben left as i've been keeping myself busy. But time has been passing real fast, and I'm beyond glad that I'll be flying to Perth for a visit in just 2 weeks!

Another reason why I've said that time's passing quickly is because Ben's at his gingin phase now and is about to go on his 1st solo! I'm so happy for him, and I'm proud that he's been flying very well so far. When you are done with the next 4 flights over the next 2 days and will read this page (I know you will :D), just wanna know that you've been such a cool boyfriend and I'll never ask for more ;)

Thursday, July 25, 2013


So Sis and I booked last minute flights and accommodation & it was SISTA-TIME well spent! I think in my 22 years of (rather well-travelled) life, my sister is the only female I can travel with fuss-free, worry-free, and super comfortably with. So far, 90% of my trips have been with guys and I classify my sister + April + cousins + Mum as the other 10%. Hahaha.

I'm the least fussy, yet picky with my travel buddies because there are just some things about (most) girls I cannot tolerate:
1. Time spent to get ready
2. Fussy with food
3. Zero adventure spirit
4. Mass tourist (traveling isn't all about shopping and going to tourist attractions)
5. Easily tired
6. Dependent

Ps: Still anticipating BKK with Gail and Grace in 2 weeks, constantly reminding myself to be more accommodating and to consider the preferences of the babes too

Let the pictures do the talking:

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

I cannot imagine what the future will bring for you and me. I'm beyond excited!

If there's at least one little dream in each soul then mine is to leave moneymaking behind and opt for a life we've always talked about. Just us, home-cooked dinners, self-baked cakes, weekend movies on a couch, & Friday night beers together after you return home from work.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Been slogging July away teaching and marking scripts and the satisfaction comes in the very tangible form of numerical figures. Really considering this route since the 3k can be earned simply with 20 hours of weekly teaching, and the post-graduate life definitely allows more to be arranged. I like this path, but don't enjoy it very much.

The problem with enjoyment is that it only comes without anticipating the harvest, and I haven't truly experienced that in the aspect of work.

Yet, I have a good news to bring!!!!! After 22 years in my life, scraping through the O levels to the A levels to (being a lucky ass in) University, I've finally realized what I really want in life, in the aspect of career. Considered many options despite the general yet ironically limiting degree, but this is definitely one of the more concrete and feasible plans.

More than glad that my parents are supportive (as always) :') Talking about family, below are some recent pictures I really like! Don't know how many times I've said this, but blood is thicker than water and i'm glad this blood of mine never thins or dilutes with time.

Just remembered you.

I think "stalking" is absolutely the most repulsive word one can use especially on a girl who is delusional, on a man who tells me the sad truth about a delusional girl, or on either one of you.

I think you need to know more than what you think you know.

Quite a pity that this space has been reduced to an avenue of spewing honest words of contamination. But again, social media has proved it's worth; and the ease of getting one insecure little girl to get more worried can just happen through one click on twitter.

Typed and backspaced and edited and euphemised many things I wanted to say, but I guess a woman with class won't go all out just to make someone feel bad about herself, no matter how brutally true things may be. All I have to say is, let bygones be bygones and if i've hurt you in any personal way, I'm sorry and i hope you can recover soon.

Gonna forget about you again, and hopefully there wouldn't be any more remembrance through a jolting reminder of your own "boyfriend's" mouth.