Tuesday, January 29, 2013

My belated "2012 is over" post

This sense of fufillment is not just satisfying, but more than necessary at this point in my life. There are just these utopic moments at different points in your life that you wish will always remain.

Today is just one of the many days.

I don't see my boyfriend very often because of his work committments, but i know, and am proud, that his sense of loyalty to the nation is of equivalence to mine. I support his career, and more importantly him, because what matters most is this passion i see in his eyes each time we meet. Of course i don't enjoy his ramble of aerospace theories and physics, or him using me as a working model of his theory for his understanding. But to know that he has finally returned to where he really belongs is heartwarming and gratifying enough. Most of all, i am glad i was bold enough to guide him back to where he is, for he once thought he had lost it all.

This journey will definitely be rough. People call me silly to put myself through the sufferance i saw my sister experience. But i don't see it as a torment at all. I see it as 2 individuals, coming together hand in hand to brace a storm, but still emerge as victors after all.

Then with romance aside there's the platonic ideal of love, whereby a small group of friends is enough to keep you smiling everyday. Without them smiling wouldn't have been a tiring daily affair; only because it's so tough not to laugh with them in your life. In all simplicity, i am more than grateful for you 4, because this friendship makes me look forward to school after every weekend. I have a 3-day school week, and many wished for theirs to be as short. But sometimes, i honestly wished it would be longer, and that we have all our classes together. Then again, it is fufilling to see us as independent individuals while we seem so grossly sticky with one another.

This friendship i value, unlike many others. Only because i see us still friends one decade later, and two possibly, and forever hopefully.

Yes 2012 is over, and many people came and went. My sister got happily married and Huson is the best brother-in-law i can ever imagine. At their weeding, 3/4 of my speech consisted of Huson's attributes, and nothing more needed to be said as i concluded that my sister is in good hands. I do miss living with my sister. We grew up together, close as any sibling can be. I miss the late-night gossiping or heart-to-heart talks till 4am in the morning. I miss peeling the skin of mandarin oranges and longans for her. I miss arguing over our clothes even. I miss her comments on everything in my life, good or bad. Each week this sense of excitement exudes from within, hoping that there will be at least this once we can come together for a meal or some chat.

Perhaps people really left. I know i've distanced from many close friends of long years. Our friendships were never forgotten, but it is difficult sometimes, because i feel like i've grown. Not necessarily better, but i've definitely became more honest, which comparatively makes everything intolerable. I am still learning, and it is certainly my resolution for 2013, to learn to balance what is honesty and the brutality of what i deem is the truth. I hope to learn to be more respectful towards those i love, and i hope this resolution will reap what its efforts sow.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

I haven't done a complete post on my sister's wedding, but I will once the pictures from Moo Media are all out!

& 20 days after my sister got married, went on her extravagant honeymoon in Paris, Switzerland and London, she's coming back home for a meal tonight!

While Ben is excited to meet my brother-in-law to discuss some ridiculous aerospace theory, I'm excited to see my sister back home where we grew up together with :')

Friday, January 18, 2013

Spring semester begins!

All the nerve-wrecking moments spent checking on our mailboxes for successfully registered modules is finally over. While I'm glad getting it over and done with, a little part of me still shivers looking at the heavy content I have to face.

One positive is definitely my 3 day school week, despite taking the most number of modules this spring. You can say that I've honed my timetable planning skills through the semesters- I've never had a 5 day week!

I still feel that it's more productive that way, psychologically or in actuality it doesn't really matter!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Earlier on I accompanied Benaiah to his OCS social night!

We've known each other for 10 years now, and although we don't meet very often or constantly check up on each other, it's so cute how we still stalk each other on our Facebook accounts. I know you are reading this! (Since you're so proud to be an avid reader of my blog hehe)

What I also know, is that you quite recently told people that I'm your best female friend. I may have many good friends, but you're definitely MY male best friend too, and it's only just to say that both Ezra and you are equally good and kind to me.

Indeed, I feel like I've been blessed with so many good men around me! A good father, a good boyfriend, Ezra who is always there for me no matter what, and Benaiah who is STILL here for me no matter what, after a decade.

I proudly declare that I have 4 boyfriends taking care of me :')